My preparedness is - perhaps unintuitively for some - a measure of how willing and ready I am to just let things happen. I've done what I can and whatever happens next is up to fate, reality, chance, God - whatever you call him. I may do a bunch of work to become very prepared, but at some point in that process, there must be a moment of letting go, in order to feel prepared. Preparedness is not there until it is felt - being felt is the only way it can be. Remember, I'm talking about my (your, our) preparedness, not some abstract "objective preparedness". I may have done everything possible, but if I'm clinging and not ready to let things happen, then I'm neverous and off my game and don't feel prepared. I perform and act like someone who isn't prepared - because in that lack of feeling, I categorically am not (despite all the hard work!).
In another scene, I may have done very little work - by my own fault or some accident out of my control - but to the degree that I am then ready to face the consequences, I feel prepared. I may even perform better, given my readiness to clearly see and respond to the present moment - which is the foundation of any excellent performance - than someone who has burned hours of time in what they believe is preparation, but in the end is too nervous and uprepared to face Consequence in the current moment.
I hope you can't hear a call to not worry and not to care in this. No, worry and care about the consequences - then be still and face them.
Certainly it was for me, because I thought being ready was a measure of the number of things I was worried about and running over in my mind over and over again.
I doubt seriously it makes any real sense to talk like that and put those words together - as much sense as "colorless green ideas sleep furiously"
Are my faults mine? Lord knows I didn't want them.
Sense that corresponds to the world and people's hearts, as opposed to things that have been said - the thing often lacking in data-generated text. It strikes me as particularly and sadly unhelpful to our understanding to call that phenomenon hallucination.